jiayou for midyears, everyone!
don't be like me, slacking over here, blogging.
42nd in class! that position is about to be MINE! hahaha.
so this is my second post for today. okay, i know i shouldn't be posting again. i should be mugging, just like the rest of you. but i just read michelle's post and realised that i have not shared my problems with anyone in secondary school. well, i may talk a lot of crap and gossip occasionally, but telling someone about the difficulties i'm currently facing? unlikely.
if i can't take it anymore, i just cry on the spot. if i can stop my tears from falling and let my eyes absorb them back in, i pretend that i'm fine for the rest of the day, before rushing home as soon as possible. i enjoy walking a lot when i'm feeling emotional, as walking lets me think things through.
i used to be able to talk to my mother about everything, but i can't now. honestly, with all the lies i've told, the things i did behind her back, she's bound to flare up if i were to tell her the entire truth one day.
and i have to admit; i have issues with trust.
ow, my stomach muscles and leg muscles hurt from yesterday's 2.4km run. another sign of becoming more unfit, as my muscles didn't hurt last time.
what happened to that shy, quiet and softspoken kid, who was hardworking, went straight home after school, did all her homework on time, completed her projects way before the given deadline, and was never scolded for talking in class? why has she changed? what changed her? can she revert back to the original person whom she once was?
will that make her a boring and less attractive person?
