post on chalet

the paragraph in my previous post was my initial plan.
but things are so messed up now. there is a change of plans.

zhengjie doesnt want to organise because mao doesnt want to organise, and mao doesnt want to organise because of some discouraging comments some people said, and if he doesnt organise i doubt weijie would wanna organise, so none of the boys will organise and only girls will organise, but if only the girls organise i dont think the boys will go, so it may end up to be a girls chalet but no, that isnt the plan because we should have a class chalet as a class, if not i dont want to organise anymore anyway so the other alternatives is to either ask some other guys who are willing to organise or just dont care and give up, but that wouldnt be good because now everybody thinks there is going to be a chalet except some which mao told that there isnt going to be a chalet when there IS, because i am going to plan one, but since nobody wants to organise there might not be, even though i already found out the price and available dates to go, and the place and everything, and i planned on what to do already, so if i just let go of everything that i have thought of and stuff will go to waste, but if i go ahead and plan like that it would be a failure, its all rather confusing, so to not further confuse myself and preventing me from getting a headache, i will just keep the info that i found out about the chalet thing and wait till after the september holidays to think whether i want to plan or not, because now people think that its too early to plan a end of year chalet in november when its only the end of august, when actually its quite late already as other schools have booked the chalet already and if we dont book now also, it may be too late and there wont be any chalet, but they just dont have the singapore kiasu-ism, and after the sept holidays there might not be time to go all the way to sentosa to book the rooms using my mother's card to get a discount, which i dont know why people are not enthu to organise because, well, its our streaming year and our last year together before we go to different classes in sec 3 but nobody really cares, i guess.

okay. so we will put the chalet thing on hold first. but i will write the chalet info here in case i forget and also for your viewing pleasure.

information- end of year chalet
place: costa sands resort at sentosa
how to get there: will find out when i go with my mother to book the rooms
date: probably on 7, 8, 9, OR 8, 9, 10 november. 3 day 2 nights
cost: 1 room- $90, 1 room for 2 nights- $140
(prices are after the discount as mother is a NTUC member)
number of rooms will depend on number of people going. this will also determine the cost each person has to pay my mother back after booking the rooms. that is, if we are organising lah.

i shall stop feeling troubled. i have tomorrow to look forward to! (: *grins*

plan chalet..

i stayed up till 12 midnight yesterday to finish my HE proposal, anyhow write the geog thing of a reporter's view, and i didnt get to do my ying yong wen. then me and vera were discussing about chalet last night too.

the things that happened today in short.
played floorball again. scored a goal for once, instead of just hitting it aimlessly. we started the sec 3 math topic variation yesterday which sucks. during recess talked to mao and zhengjie and nureen about chalet. geography and science and lit was so boring. then pan guy didnt come for lesson so we went to the concourse. then went back to class for english. mrs teo didnt come and we were supposed to do the v.v.v.hard compre but the place looked like we were having a class party instead. after school heard that pan guy was going to visit 3e2 at the classroom at 2.30 so we went there and waited for him. later saw him wearing an orange shirt and his students gave him some gifts. then he went somewhere and told us to look after his stuff. me and jingyi went to change for st john. when he came back we talked to him for a while and he gave us all his namecard. then went back for training. after training we were briefed on the aces day duty this thursday. one sec two is paired from another sec one. so me and qiu yan are at station number 2 at the traffic light near millenia institute and the teacher in charge there is mr lee kp and some other teacher whom i dont know.

have to plan stuff. (:
i wanted to organise class chalet but i obviously cant do it alone. so most probably nureen and zhengjie will help organise too. plus weijie because i just asked him. end of year chalet would be around the beginning of november. 7, 8, 9 or 8, 9, 10. must see about how many people staying overnight then decide how many rooms to book. after the end of year exams, we should start planning the activites and stuff. peijun wants to help think of games and so shes our games co-ordinator. so we would have to ask the everybody in class tomorrow as me and my mammo will go to sentosa on one of the days in the sept holidays to book and its cheaper because she's a NTUC card member. then after paying will have to collect the money from people. i dont know what mao is trying to do, so enthu and eager to help about this chalet thing and then later not wanting to organise already. haiyo. heck care him lah.

we train and we train and we train

where should i start.. friday sj training saturday footdrill training today AGI rehearsal. three days in a row got st john thing. so tired. but anyway, i will get to miss math tution three times! today i missed the first already. next sunday will be the actual AGI and next next sunday we have the CPR heart saver test. so i will fail my SA2 math. we train and we train and we train. im so tanned now. my face is tanner and darker. my neck until the place where the collar of the shirt rests is tanned so there is a v-shape which is tanner than my usual colour. the place from my elbow to hands is tanned only on top but on the under side where my palm faces is fair. and the place from my knee to where i wear my black socks are also tanned. its so weird. the place where i wear my socks is fair and my legs are so dark and my thighs are my normal colour. my sister noticed and she told me that i should go to sentosa to even out the tan. then i told her we should go during the holidays. anyway, today we had the annual general inspection rehearsal. saw haziq and allen. but allen like never see me. my lips cracked yesterday. mother thinks ths cause of it is drilling too much in the sun and told me to bring lip balm but i forgot to bring today. this is a very messy post because im not paragraphing. speaking of which, i have to look up on desertification of somewhat and type a short paragraph of it and do HE proposal and do the ying yong wen i left in the locker and english journal and im going to fail math. mother promised that she will let me perce my second earhole during the sept holidays but got competition leh. then cannot take out the earring until a few months later if not the hole will close, so only can pierce after the competition. there is public duty for aces day + teachers day performance on this coming thursday so we dont have to walk the 5km thing or whatever. yayy. then after that can go back to nan hua! with mei rong and vanessa. the only thing im looking forward to is teachers day. (: im tired but i have to do stuff i mentioned and find a way to go school early and complete ying yong wen. but obviously i wont be able to do so, because im so tired i cant get up in the morning and my parents leave the house around 7. i have to stop being so indecisive and find out what i want instead of saying i dont know all the time and ask for help in making decisions. yah. okay. i want to sleep. read the email my dad forwarded to me which i forwarded to 48 people about running through the rain. its worth reading okays.

pan guy farewell thingy

TODAY I PON SCHOOL!
HEH. most of you should know. unless you are OUTDATED. =D

woke up at TEN AM
instead of last last last friday when i pon and woke up at ONE PM.
because i HAD TO GO TO THE PAN GUY THINGY.
and my father was VERY ANNOYING telling me to wake up.
after a while he LEFT THE HOUSE.
so i was ALONE with PEACE.
then i MADE BREAKFAST MYSELF and USED THE COM.
bathed then RE-DID the ROLE MODEL compo in 15 MINUTES.
because i WROTE TOO MUCH.
i always write MORE THAN 400 and my SUMMARY SUCKS.
then i WENT TO SCHOOL
JINGYI WENXI kept calling me tell me FASTER COME SCHOOL.
i went in by the BACK GATE and saw the FUN FAIR THINGY at the CONCOURSE.
then met JINGYI WENXI AND SHUANGYU at the spiral staircase.
met MAO and some other guys at the SECOND LEVEL.
then met CHRYSTABEL AND MELINA.
after that met BEATRICE AND NUREEN too.
later went to the CANTEEN and saw JINGYI WENXI SHUANGYU XUELI VANESSA DENISE CHRYSTABEL MELINA NUREEN BEATRICE PEI JUN there. aiyah. almost all the girls in class lah.
they all say i PON TAN-ER and stuff.
then say i never come so got no SPA MARKS.
how can? i ABSENT what. DOESNT COUNT.
then DENISE and PEI JUN told me some LAME JOKES.
went to BUY A DRINK as i was THIRSTY AND PERSPIRING LIKE CRAZY.
because of RUSHING TO SCHOOL and TALKING TOO MUCH.
after a while it was 1.45 and we went to AVT1 for the FAREWELL THING.
SHUANGYU sat beside me
BENJAMIN and JONATHAN were in front
BENJI KOR asked for my no.
we talked about SKIPPING SCHOOL.

then pan guy got started with his presentation and all the lights were off.
after one slide will be where he types the things he feels or about all the classes and stuff and the things that happened, he plays a chinese song and there are lyrics on the screen to follow the song.
out of the five songs i downloaded which he asked us to find the lyrics of, four were played today.
and the atmosphere was like, so sad. the things written and the sad songs.
was trying not to cry.
wenxi was so emo and her eyes were all red from crying.
jingyi also cried.
couldnt control anymore so only cried at the end.
haha then jingyi say i was retarded.

went to spiral staircase to change for training.
yunqian came feeling very bu shuang.
something happened so we listened to her side of the story.
after training for a while shiya came.
before last parade all the teams did the whole format once.
shared a cab with shiya and she told me her side of the story.

all of us must work hard! jiayou for FDC! must get the champion and all the hard work will pay off. (:

i was using the computer in the living room and sent the song, 'the way you look at me' to mao. then jonathan wanted the chinese songs pan guy recommended which i downloaded in the computer in the study room so i went to the study room since he pleaded me to send him the songs then nureen went online so i went to the computer in the living room to send her the song by the wonders - that thing you do and i was using two computers. troublesome to have chinese songs on one side and english songs on the other side. hahas.

if you want any songs feel free to IM me. i can help you find and download. (: especially english songs lah.

have to sleep early for training tomorrow. byes.

sp

WEDNESDAY

all the sec twos missed footdrill training. since we had to go for this singapore poly talk thing.

in the bus going to singapore poly, we passed nhps. yay. the lovely temple. and bryant went 'nan hua xiao xue' in his funny slang. lols. then we passed my old house. haha. its like travelling down memory lane when the bus drove along that route.

although our class took the last bus, we didnt need to walk much to the auditorium as the bus drove further in. haha. i love singapore poly. its so big and pretty. i went there before to watch my sister in the play, the wizard of oz.

we had to line up to go into the auditorium. me and nureen were lining up behind weijie and zhengjie and were crapping. then nureen sat at the corner, the starting of a new row. aww. cannot sit with the jiejies.

there were other schools which joined us like westwood and compass ville.

this guy talked a bit and showed us a video about the courses in sp, blahblah. lame. but when the video was showing the part of architecture and interior designing, they showed my condo! northvale! the swimming pool part! then i was like, oh my god thats my condo. and nureen was like, no wonder it looks so familiar. and yiting was like, oh, thats northvale? and jingyi was like, shi ting, your house right. then they showed my house a second time. showing block 71. yay my house v.nice hor. good design. haha

after boring talks we were briefed on the treasure hunt game. wenxi, yiting, nureen, shuangyu, jingyi, beatrice, wendy and i formed a group. then we ran all over the polytechic carrying our school bags. so tiring. but we earned the 10th position in the end. got a sp pen and chocolates. i already have a lot of those pens at home lah. last year my jie was sec 4 and had to choose if she wanted poly of JC mah.

went to lot 1 before going home.

i dont like mrs teo. at the beginning of the year, i liked her because she seemed nice, likes purple, and is encouraging. but not now. i mean, have you ever seen a english teacher who doesnt know how to spell some words? sometimes she has to ask english pros for the spelling of words. need i remind you that she pronounced roald dahl as ron dahl? and on monday, vanessa xueli and i could finish our compre. so she told us to put it in her pigeon hole locker no.11 when we are done. i remembered it perfectly. plus its also my index number. then that day she returned the comprehensions i told her that we left it in her pigeon and she was all, 'you are not supposed to put anything in my pigeon hole you know' but i was like no, you told us to put in your pigeon hole that day because we couldnt finish, because that was the truth. but she insisted that she was right and told me to go to the locker to check so i brought back the three worksheets for her to mark. then she told the class, 'i told you time and again not to put things in my pigeon hole..' blahblahbla. her crap. what the hell.

yes yes nureen, that cute hunk! i only told peijun, nureen and vera about it. i remembered his name and address! and that scene was so funny. after that i kept laughing like hell. hahahha.

i dropped tears again.

purple seashells

had monday blues yesterday. but during the first two peroids of science i was so happy to get receive my common test marks. (: yay ness. and tyco-ism. but who cares. the paper was freaking easy. two other people got the same marks as me.

did the art food colouring dye thingy too. so fun. just anyhow do and people can say that it looks nice. hahaha.

stayed up last night to do my art. the seashell thing. 6 designs and the final work. stayed up till midnight to finish it all. but it was sort of worth it. because the purple looks nice. actually, purple always looks nice. and its quite okay for something which was done by a sleepy person with flu and heavy eyelids.

played floorball for PE today. and geography teacher said that our group and another guy's group got 80 marks for PBL. whoohoo. staying up till 2am to do pbl last minute and taking neoprints together on days we met to "do pbl" really pays off. my pbl group rocks. haha.

i went around my neighbourhood asking for donations after school. got $11. still left with 17 slots. and the last collection is tomorrow. ahhhh.

I GOT SO LOW FOR ENGLISH! AHHHH. boohoos.

stressy

stress stress stress..

i dont know why i feel so stressed all of a sudden. like, the stress of so many important sj things coming up. even though half the year is gone and ndp is over, there is still footdrill competition, AGI, heart saver test, and at the end of the year, advance nco course. then train so much, and saw this paper that wrote that i was a reserve for the competition. okay lah. what the.. i admit i felt disappointed. then after that, say not reserve again. haiyo. what are they trying to do.. sigh. i lost the motivation of training. but later when doing drill must concentrate so also no time to think so much. can really see some improvement of the mixed team during today's training at hq.

i dont know why lor. people tend to either look me no up or think im weak and fragile. or both. i mean, please lah. im naturally fair. or sometimes i look pale. so what? i can tahan ndp what. i havent fainted before in my whole life. dont see me as nothing or some weakling just because i look pale. then people like to think im not up to what im supposed to do or not good enough. because they look me no up. i dont know why. a little bit of things they think i cannot take it. what the ****. plus even though i may be nearly underweight a few times and i look skinny or whatever CREATIVE adjectives you would like to phrase it, i eat more than other people, i am well nourished, my mother is a nurse, i havent had chicken pox. so im healthy. not weak.

I HAVE POTATO POWER! :D

i was sick previously and only just recovered for a few days and now i have this flu. this is crap. streaming this year and i failed so many tests and exams so far and ive been slacking and not wanting to do my homework. procrastinating. i dont usually do that with homework last year. now i dont even have time to go rollerblading. yes life is that sad. my hp calendar is always packed. i didnt study for the common tests last week properly, so i wont do well. i always dont study but i still can pass. the first time i studied was for this year's MYEs. but now the exams are harder because its the streaming year and whatsoever. i cannot count on sheer luck and tyco-ism.

then there's my family. my sister is always busy with art and debate and JC stuff so she is okay. she only disturbs me sometimes. not as often before, which is a very good thing. then she likes to say i have a stumpy ponytail in this act cute childish voice. older sisters are annoying. my mammo likes to nag at me and say that sj is troublesome and that we have so many programmes and when can we ever take a break and say that im getting sick. even my own mother looks down on me. blahs. yes, and her expectations are so low. too low for a normal singaporean mother i think. plus she keeps suspecting and being paranoid that i have a bf. sometimes i feel very bad lying to her. my dad minds his own business, but sometimes he becomes unreasonable. after talking on the phone, he would be interogating me. asking so many questions like, who was that? why must talk so long ah? talk about what? sometimes he knows its somebody and says 'you better stop talking to that boy if not i will confiscate your handphone and give you a prepaid card. next time he calls i would scold him.' mom sometimes says such things too. when i talk too much, dad likes to go, 'i give you a few more minutes on the phone. after that i will cut off/ plug out the phone line'. mammo especially likes to say this sentence in mandarin, 'you should stop talking to him or you would end up liking him.' and in my heart i go, 'thanks for such an EARLY warning.' nowdays mammo doesnt listen. last time i used to be able to just chit chat and talk to her about school and she has time to listen because she did not have a job and worked as a housewife. now that she does private nursing, at home i tell her one sentence about things in school and she replies with another sentence about interesting things that happen when nursing this rich psychiatric patient, clearly not listening. sigh.

okay enough talking about stress. have to destress and kick some butt in streetfighter or somewhat.

yesterday was out st john POP for our sec 4s. did restock duty then reported to the DOS for first parade. after that we had to change to full u for the parade. we had to decorate AVT1 with balloons drawing the the whiteboard to welcome the sec 4s. then we are the promotion parade. after changing to our PT kit we went up to AVT1. sy and atiqah were the emcees for the performance. the sec ones put up a skit about training and hiking and sj activities which included some funny parts inside. then when it was the sec twos turn, we had to act act fake cry mahs. so we brought eyedrop and we it came to that part, the lights were switched off. then we quickly put on the eyedrop. i asked sy for the eyedrop and as we were in a hurry, she just anyhow dropped the eyedrop all over my face. lols. my face was most wet lahs. i think. a bit went inside my mouth too. then we did the dance. after that the sec 3s sang tong hua which brought back many memories and the sec fours became so emotional and their faces started becoming red. then they danced to pump it. there was a video made by ma'am liping. very nice. with all the photos. (: they gave the souvenirs to the sec 4s and we sang ho jingyi a birthday song. later we went down to have some refreshments. then after the last parade we were dismissed. it was quite fun. (: then we were shooed out of the school. haha.

shall go sleep.. so tired.

12-17 august

i can finally go online today for more than half an hour! YAYY.
so now, i can blog while my dad is asleep on the sofa hugging a red heart shaped cushion and my mammo bathing.

anyway, i noticed that everybody has copied me!! bleh. i started putting the radio blog club music thingy on my blog and others have followed suit. not original le. but i kinda started a trend? haha. jj is crazy, i think he put 10 songs on his blog.

flag day on saturday was fun (: because:

• we found a wei jie no.2 (jun yan, sec 1 junior) and nureen and i kinda introduced them to each other during recess today.
• 2e6 girls like wendy nureen denise jingyi shuangyu wenxi were there.
• it was just fun lah. (: i also dont know why. even though we faced so many rejections.

tution on sunday was fun because:

• the three crappy sec 3 or 4 guys were crapping again and made up some crappy math question of finding the area of a star
• they said a lot of crappy things that made me and jie laugh
• and in the lift they were still at it again trying to find the area of the ceiling of the lift

school on monday was okay. okay, maybe not so okay.

• was late for school. my parents always get me into detention. sigh. i reached school when the national anthem was playing. then after the pledge i walked pass the prefects at the main gate and that same prefect who always tells me to go to the late coming area told me to report to the late coming area as usual. starting to hate that damn prefect. but i didnt care and continued walking straight to go join my class but i saw her behind me actually following me to the stupid late coming area so i had no choice. come on, i was only a bit late.
• had science and chinese common test that wasnt too hard. but forgot how to write some words for chinese.
• scraped the math revision test and passed common test by three marks. i really lost 17 marks exactly, just like i told my friends. really surprised i didnt fail. you know what this means? I CAN GET MY SECOND EARHOLE DURING SEPT HOLIDAYS!!
• during english mrs teo told us the reason why she wont be able to come for the rest of the week and stuff. but i was so shocked when i got back my comprehension about the roald dahl book that i have somewhere in my cupboard which i read before. i didnt finish my compre because i skipped school last last friday and she couldnt find my compre and give it to me to do on monday and told me to get one from her on tuesday, school's ndp but i forgot about it because of the parade and other stuff then after all the ndp stuff there was common test so do you think i can remember? anyway, i was so shocked because she marked my work and put question marks for the questions i didnt do and wrote at the bottom 'see me'. what the. i went to see her straight away and she told me to leave a note for her to remark on the first page.
• oh yah. and i forgot to mention about that day we started on the compre, she kept pronouncing roald dahl as ron dahl. so irritating.
• so anyway, while sitting there trying to rush through the compre questions, the meaning of words AND the summary in the mist of restless classmates who have done their work already, hmm. not such a good idea. we sat according to index no and sitting near the girls and maomao who changed place with bertrand wasnt the ideal environment to concentrate pretty much, plus while writing you have people throwing bits of erasers over your head and some directly at you and people making it hard for you to write on the table because it keeps shaking, and bits of erasers being poured down into your shirt, it isnt very surprising that i got pissed. i couldnt do a simple freaking compre properly.
• anyway the bell rang. mao was playing with sy and jy. i saw him take his bag and leave the classroom. the class cleared out except for some like me and vanessa who were still doing and some friends waiting for each other. mrs teo told us to put it in her pigeon hole. after she left i broke down.
• sigh. thanks to denise pei jun melina vanessa chrystabel xueli yiting and whoever that consoled me. cant really remember. everything was a blur. all i know is that i got a stupid see me thing on my paper and i wont do well for my compre and im a utter failure and irritating people wouldnt let me concentrate and mao didnt wait for me and well, other stuff. i was feeling kind of depressed.
• so anyway, mao suddenly came in because big mouth people probably told him i was crying if not i think he wouldnt have came back. finished up my compre. then we went to the back of school and bought two large fries to eat in class.
• when im sad, i cannot talk because im controlling my tears so if i talk i would cry again. and i also dont feel like talking about it. so please understand that this is me when im sad and i am not ignoring anybody. (anyway, now im blogging about everything like i said i would, right?)
• went for boring detention. there were only 3 people in MT6 this time. i only had 45 minutes of detention because i went for detention 5 minutes late and ms koe gave me back my ezlink 10 min before detention ends.
• was late for that sj thing. but it was okay.
• thanks for the encouragement smses from pei jun, denise, and vera. thanks to everyone for their concern.
• met mao and did my FBJ at mac behind school before going home

tuesday, 15th august

• met mao at the main gate when i came to school.
• just as i thought, PE was used to take height and weight. i grew by 4 to 5 cm and didnt really gain weight. so now im standing at a height of 159cm weighing a total of 38kg. i was there worrying about being underweight when people were there worrying about being overweight.
• math retest! because we did really badly for the revision test. the paper was still quite difficult.
• there was no literature because we had to go to the computer lab to do some survey thingy. there was like twenty over pages of questions with more than 60 questions altogether. but my computer was fast so i finished it quickly. there was this sticker thing we kept playing with that writes your NRIC and password that we had to stick on your own hand.
• we were told that those in pan guy's class will die. turns out that somebody from our class told the others in the other half of the class that pan guy gave us ANSWERS for the common test, when he gave us HINTS. 3e2 also. then the school wants to cut short his contract or something. and they might deduct 10 marks from the chinese common test for the section tian xie han zi. what the hell. wenxi was thinking of starting a petition.
• had a english reading test. the teacher that sat in for mrs teo was miss yu.
• had to meet ms koh after school for a while to file in the land worksheet thingy. then rushed off for training.
• had training after school. the parade square was slippery and there was oral exams going on so we trained near the main gate. my socks were all wet because of the crack under the sole of my left boot which sucked in water when i stepped on puddles.
• liying gave me the attendance list and stuff to do the ndp thingy.
• mao asked if i wanted to go to the arcade tomorrow but i didnt feel like going so i texted vera instead to ask if she wants to go out.
• nureen texted me and asked why i wasnt going for the arcade thing.
• went online to do the ndp clocking of cip hours thing that liying told me to do.
• benji IM-ed and wanted me to go to the tomorrow's arcade thingy.
• then when talking to vera over the phone after that mao called my hp and said that i should go the arcade thing tomorrow. his reason was that if i dont go, he wont go and benji wont go. then if i dont go the girls wont go so the whole thing will be cancelled.
• as if lah. i dont believe. im not so important.
• so i decided that i will go to the arcade then meet vera after that. I MISS HER.
• dad told me off for talking on the phone for so long.

wednesday 16/8

• jonathan had typed out a petition for the pan guy thing. good idea, but the sentence was so, eh.. it was called mr phua's documents. lols. then there were some weird sentences inside and wrong tenses and repeated stuff. so vanessa and i were told to correct it during english, since it was our free peroid.
• during music miss tang let us watch this movie about a band called the ONEders and their hit single doing that thing you do and before they signed with a company everybody called them the oneeders. then they changed it to the wonders because of confusion. guy patterson the drummer has a trademark which gives him the nickname shades. the movie was so lao tu lah. and we watched it through CME since theres no assembly and the air con became really cold.
• walked to westmall after school and changed. then went to the arcade. wenxi, shuangyu, jingyi, jonathan, benjamin, zhengjie, and mao were there. me and wenxi played some games against jingyi and shuangyu. then vera called and said she was coming up. met her outside and she couldnt come in because she was wearing school u. SAW VERA'S LIGHT BLUE BRACES!! when i went back to the arcade to take my bag they were playing the rowing boat game. then i tried pulling mao out to meet her. at first he was reluctant lah. but they met and i left with vera. she ate her lunch at mac while i ate large fries and had ice lemon tea. we kept talking and talking and she ate slowly because of her braces. suddenly while talking i was surprised to see mao and zhengjie pop out and was standing behind vera. they ate ice cream and sat at another table.
• met downstairs and went to the playground behind westmall together. zhengjie asked if vera was in primary or secondary school. LOL. vera is cute! and zj is cute! cute people. i found that they looked quite compatible and wenxi, mao, jy and sy agrees. haha. disturb only. dont take it to heart. just very fun to disturb cute people.
• wanted to go to lot 1 with vera, zj and mao but zj couldnt or something.
• saw stacy, jingyi's sister and their friends at lot 1
• went home soon after.
• printed out the ndp attendance and cip hours thing on the new printer. my aunt won it in some company lucky draw thing.
• stayed up till 12 to finish all the chinese newspaper thingy that ive been procrastinating to do.

today during english, it was kinda free period again. we were given this compo to do but didnt do it at all because me, nureen, wenxi, jingyi, shuangyu and xueli were playing TRUTH OR DARE. that used to be my favourite game but not anymore. ahhh. so funny yet so... shouldnt have played. after playing for a while it became DARE OR DOUBLE DARE. wenxi was the only siao one to choose double dare.

gave liying the ndp thingy i printed and she was like, you finish so fast ah? haha. and i told her that she spelt brigade wrongly and she said that miss lim always says that. g and d looks the same. lols.

had door to door and i had 3 donations to finish my first card. yay. im left with 28 blanks in the second card. monday is the last collection already.

now i should really go ask what am supposed to do for HE since i pon last last friday..

common test 06

english and math common test are over. now on to science and chinese.
2 papers down, 2 to go.
the pan guy was very funny about how he gave us the hints for next monday's paper. lols. english cloze passage was v.hard, while the math paper EVERYTHING was hard. yup. i most definitely will not get my second piercing so soon. unless a miracle happens or if i get lucky. (:

just as i thought- i failed that geography test. ms koh handed me my paper and was like, 'very badly done'. bleh. this is what happens when you dont study and copy blindly from another person who didnt study as well. but its not my fault, he let me cheat de. ah hahaha. haiyo ben-ja-min kor kor.. give me wrong answer. lols. at least got the same marks as him. heh.

after school went to spiral for a while to hand up the consent form for tomorrow's flag day. after that while walking to westmall with mao, we saw another couple- xuanyang and wylin. oohlala. didnt know they were together. okay maybe im slow or outdated. then at the platform we met debby.

anyway, went to eat korean food at the food court in lot 1. yum. then went home, showered, changed, and went out again.

oh yeah. ignore my strikeouts on my previous entry. (:
hm. dont know what else to blog about. just tired.

I WANT TO MEET VERA
I WANT TO GO BACK NHPS
I WANT I WANT I WANT!!

mary HAD a little lamb, which means its dead!
jonathan finds my msn nick amusing.

people! you must click the play button thingy to play the song. under the me! section.

ndp, change of skin

after searching and searching, i finally found this blogskin.

mary HAD a little lamb, which means it is dead.
song is me vs the world by halo friendlies.

i havent even started studying for the english and math common test tomorrow. no mood at all.

yesterday was ndp. everybody was super duper high. did you see me on tv? i was in the third row from the boys brigade contingent and the sixth row from the npcc contingent, the third person from the back. i doubt you could spot me. but it doesnt matter. 'cause i was in the contingent. yay =) thats good enough.

rahimah is out. im rooting for jonathan =) jay was out last week.
last last saturday there was a ndp preview where we saw the singapore idols. dont know why they didnt show it on tv. but after the preview i went home and they featured the preview on most of the channels which were reporting the news. did i mention? jay looked so cute in person and when me and yunqian waved at jonathan, he waved back. then i screamed. haha.

yesterday's ndp was the best. in the morning before the rehearsal i smsed a bunch of people saying 'happy national day! =)' and got quite some replies. before the actual parade we did the fun xi shua shua cheer np always does, together with npcc. so nice. during the parade our dressing was so neat, and i didnt feel as tired as the usual rehearsals. after that people got so emotional and started crying. aww.

went out to westmall in the evening for a while today with mao and benjamin and played some arcade games. played daytona and they kept trying to make me crash. crap lah. they were trying so hard to ram me against the sides that i came in first for one of the rounds we played. lols. then had to come back home again since mammo bought pizza for dinner. im sick of pizzahut lah. thats what they always gave us to eat during ndp.

oh well. im gonna flunk math again. then i wont be able to get that second piercing.

sometimes i feel so alone. i cant tell my parents anything. half the time my mother nags at me and occasionally my dad scolds me sometimes when he has to like when i use the computer for too long or what not. i can tell my sister anything but she doesnt listen so its as good as talking to a wall. i can tell my bestest best friend vera everything in the world but she is v.busy with her own stuff. in school people can just leave me out and forget about me. its like even if i disappeared nobody will notice. when i try to talk people dont listen to what i have to say. and when i dont talk people think that im v.quiet. i feel so alone in this world.

yet sometimes. i have weird mood swings and different personalities. its like one day i come to school really excited and happy, talking a lot to my friends and being hyper, doing stuff without thinking. then the next day i have a grouchy face and this heavy heart, not able to smile and very introverted, thinking before doing something, which is sometimes too late. some people said that i should smile more, my face black black, or whatever. and for these people i have been telling myself to be happy and stay cheerful, keep smiling, singing cute happy songs in my head. then nowadays people say i look happier because of somebody. but is it really worth it? i mean, is this the real me? did i change myself thinking that this sort of character would be better, so that people would stop insulting me? or so that people would like me better?

sigh. im useless and pathetic. i dont know where im going in life. i dont know what im doing. im like living for others. no ambitions. no goals. i used to have a dream but its too far fetched and im not good enough anyway. sometimes i feel sucidal. other times i feel that if i die it wouldnt make a difference. somtimes i feel loved. but other times i feel coldness. life is so fragile. i will die one day. why not today? will it matter how long i get to live? once i was depressed and told loads of people 'i want to die'. nobody took me seriously. most just said 'die lor'. yup. die lor. cold ice body with not a care in the world. no stress, nobody to judge you anymore, just eternal peace.

there's a huge box in the middle of my living room now. it hold a huge printer my dad bought. do we even need a third printer anyway?

neo with mao

okay. so today was the school's ndp celebration thing. woke up bright dark and early in the morning and reached school with shiya quite early. shuangyu and jingyi beat us by a few seconds and some sec ones were like really very early.

and the national day speech thing was like soo long. then mrs kee still had to say it in malay. ahh. but the parade is okay compared to actual ndp. after the parade we had to return to our classes only we couldnt because we cannot sit on the floor wearing full u. so we remained standing and swayed to the music, sang along and waved our national flags, clappers, or that blow blow thing which will uncurl itself and produce and sound when blowed thingy. these came from a goodie bag. kept blowing the thing at people. =) then we returned to class. the classes had to set up stalls at our classrooms. i didnt even know that. nobody told me. and it seems that our class wasnt very prepared. i bought corntos and biscuits from 2e2.

had last parade. after we were dismissed, i was asked to rush to go home then go out. and while i was rushing home, suddenly the going out thingy was cancelled 'cause nureen and beatrice were going to lot1 to watch click instead. ahh. what the hell. i couldve gone out with whoever who were planning to eat lunch after the parade or go with shiya and the others to go to cia mei's house. i was in the mood to go out lah. you dont usually have half days in school right.

so gone ahead and went out even though i was the only girl. met mao benjamin jonathan and cute boy zhengjie (cute in a cute boyboy kinda way, not hunk way). went to causeway point. after eating lunch we went to the arcade. i saw two guys from math tution there. dont think they saw me. i look at them i want to laugh because they are soo crappy during tution. dont really like arcades after that losing my wallet incident. speaking of which, jonathan lost his handphone. somebody took it lah. he was like so frustrated. after that went to lot 1 then reached home at 9.30pm.

saw a calico cat in northvale. so cute! it kept meowing at me and looking directly at me with buge yellow eyes.

i'm going to sleep. over and out.

layered hair

i got a haircut yesterday!
went to the EC house 10 minutes cut thing and mammo said to the hairdresser as usual- cut fringe above eyebrows, a bit layered at the back, blahblah.

but guess what. this male hairdresser cut for me until very short. and more layered than usual. but that guy looked quite pro in cutting hair. even this ah ma that talked to my mammo who was waiting for me said so.

then anyway. i was fretting over my short hair at home and how to tie it to school the next day. how to even show up at school in the morning. ahhh. then my jie helped me anyhow tie. haha.

so today i tied my hair to school like that. then i didnt want to walk to the concourse so i just stood at the pathway near the main gate where i usually come to school from. then yi ting came. then wendy. the bell rang and we went for morning assembly.

so throughout the day, people commented about my hair. most say i look cute and some say its weird. yupps. eeks. its so fugly lah. not used to my hair so short and thin and keeps poking my neck when i let it down. haha. sooo short.

during art mrs chee scolded some people and then the whole class. as usual. its like becoming a routine. the class is indeed very united. in this sort of debating with the teacher and making your voice heard standing for your rights kinda thing. but mrs chee saw it as a being against teachers together and rebelling. whatever. im a neutral party. (: okay, maybe not so. because she is unreasonable and squashed up my worksheet before.

chinese was so funny. pan guy was explaining some chinese words and people kept looking at me. hahaha so funny. people who were there should know. blahs.

miss koh came in looking for yiting and benjamin when she meant shi ting. haha. 'cause we missed the geography test last friday. so had to take it after school.

then during english i didnt get back my comprehension. what the. i told mrs teo and that i was absent on friday. maybe she lost it. hope not. at first she was like after school come and find me but i told her i had a test and she was like tomorrow morning then give me. dont know if she meant give me a new worksheet, or what. she asked if my cough is okay and i told her its better. she said can tell from my voice. =)

so after mrs teo finally dismissed us benjamin disappeared but i later found him outisde the staff room. waited for a while. then ms koh gave us the geography test papers. ahh. oh my gosh. i didnt study.

IM GONNA FLUNK GEOGRAPHY AND MATH.

after that i went to the canteen to eat lunch. talked to denise then went to spiral staircase. the seniors briefed us about tomorrow and we went to 1e1 classroom for further briefing about flag day. denise is my flag day buddy =) in group 5. group leader boonkiat. with sec ones liping and xing liang.

dad is gonna send me and shiya to school tomorrow. i wonder how am i gonna bun my hair.

beginning of august

havent blogged for so long. didnt have time to use the computer for leisure.

anyway, today mammo allowed me to skip school. yesterday she asked me if i wanted to go to school tomorrow (which is today) because she thought i was gonna get a fever due to lack of sleep.

oh whatever. at that time i already pinned all my badges on my full-u and polished my boots.

then the tiny angel at the corner of my head popped out and thought, i already got ready for the next day and there are TWO tests the next day that i shouldnt miss.

but the devil from the other side popped out and reminded me that havent done my flour baby journal and the HE workbook yet. dont forget even having time to study for the HE and geography test the next day. and mammo rarely allows you to skip school, so dont miss the chance. anyway, why not?

so.. ta dah. i missed school today.

early in the morning i vaguely remember mammo asking me questions.. and later dad also talked to me a bit and said something about breakfast. cant remember. i think i was half awake.

i woke up at about 1pm today. mao called me. the background was very noisy with voices of different people. anyway, he told me there was some FBJ homework and the pan guy told those people in his class to copy some article in the friday weekly newspaper thingy. wenxi talked to me for a bit and so did nureen. =) then i used the computer and talked to jun ting on msn. he told me more about the pan lao shi thingy. what he described was that pan guy asked everyone in class which article they read and asked questions about that article. if you cant answer, you have to copy. denise has to copy three pages! junting said that he, leon, and ningzhi were the only ones who need not copy anything as they were after maomao, and there wasnt enough time or something. haha.

I AM SO HENG.

jt then went on to tell me about firestorms or something.. burning infernos that suck people in at 1,000 degrees celcius and leaving black corpses along the street. yada yada. something like that. eww and gross, but kinda interesting. yeah. thats why i like talking to him on msn. he asks random questions that actually makes you think sometimes and talks about random things.

i dont know why he knows all this stuff anyways.

talked to nureen on msn and sent her the html code for the blogskin she is using now because i made that skin!! GO TO NUREEN'S BLOG NOW. i made that blogskin!! go see go see! (: thats my second blogskin. then vera came online and i have more blogskin business. third skin coming up! for vera. this would be more challenging since its anime. i need inspiration and time =)

was talking to pei jun just now. she told me about the pan guy thing today too.







had a st john meeting on tuesday after school and training on wednesday. oh yeah wednesday. i was late AGAIN. i was hoping to get to school when the prefects had left for class and not get caught and earn myself detention but no. i got detention again. me and 8 other people sat in the detention room. there wasnt a prefect on duty so i could sms this time. then when the time was almost up, ms koe came in and asked who was late today. she took out a card and i had a feeling it was mine. she went, 'aiyo so cute. who is shi ting?' i walked there to take my card but before she gave it to me she said more crap. 'last time so cute. now ah.. pull up your socks and make your collar properly..' blah blah. what the hell. i just want my card, dammit. then i rushed off for training and got to the spiral staircase in 10 minutes.

slept at 2am on thursday morning cause me, vanessa and wenxi stayed up late doing pbl. on thursday we presented to the class and there were many distruptions. did i speak loud enough?? hope so. while we were presenting, some guy by the initials of o.k.k kept laughing and commenting but after that when it was his group to present, he talked softer then what he usually does by insulting people loudly in class. gosh. i really cant stand him. hate him lah.
- suay suay was put as my HE partner in sec 1 AND 2 before switching.
- said some stupid comments loudly when i failed my math
- said 'matthew why you like her ah? give me good reasons. isit because her face black black?' loudly
i will show him how "black" my face can get if he continues to talk shit. thinks he's so good in math..

speaking of math. on wednesday miss lim let us do a worksheet and it was a mini test. the first 5 pairs to have finish with all the correct answers will get something. i had some careless mistakes and there was this one question which was quite difficult. nureen and i had all the correct answers but when we got back to miss lim, weimin and junting were in front of us. we got 6th position instead! ahh.

my stupid parents didnt go for the ndp preview last saturday when i thought they were going to. what the. thats why i was disappointed. so when i reached home that day, i gave them a sulky face. mammo talked to me and said they bought an mp3 player but i was like, 'i rather my parents go for a ndp preview than have an mp3 player.' come on. im not that materialistic. and so what if they bought and mp3 player for my jie and i to "share"? i only brought it to school on tuesday. even though i told jie that for this week, i will bring it to school on tuesday and thursday (she gets monday, wednesday, friday, and saturday), when i woke up on thursday and was getting ready to go to school, jie had left and the mp3 also disappeared with her. so much for "sharing".

tomorrow, ndp rehearsal again. yawns. i must admit that im kinda sick of ndp and the song on my blog right now.

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