Saturday, August 29, 2009

You know what to expect.

Just came back from Sentosa but I'm still not tanned! D:

Anyway, it's time for a long list of updates! Yay!!

18/8/09: It was Justin's idea to come over to my house to play Wii, but nobody else wanted to come. Hahaha. It was funny how he was pleading with the others to join him. We were walking out of school and still nobody else wanted to join us. Then we saw Daniel cycling out of school and so Justin got him to join us. Haha.

At Lot 1, Lynn, Yingwei and I wanted to eat at MOF so we had ice cream there. They went to buy bubble tea after that and Yingwei and Lynn decided to come over too! Yay. Had lots of fun.

20/8/09: Melanie's birthday!
I bought a cake the day before so I went to school earlier than usual to ask the Good News Cafe uncle to help me keep the cake in case Mel sees it! But it was so retarded of me to forget to bring the lighter. Hahaha. Thankfully, Justin managed to get one! Yay. And the card was placed in Miuyen's locker.

But it was kinda hard to get people to write post-it notes since Mel was around, and the lesson before lunch was mother tongue so everyone was separated. Lynn was with Mel at the Cafe and I couldn't get the cake! Miu and I went there as if we had to talk to Xueying, but it was already so obvious when I got the cake box from the cafe.

Back at the canteen, I was wondering where everyone went to when a whole group of people from my class came over and crowded around the table. They started to write messages for Mel too. It was such an impromptu thing! Mel was brought over and the class sang her a birthday song really loudly. Hahah. And the cake was yummy.

I was glad that GP consultation was suddenly cancelled and I could go and watch 'Where Got Ghost' with Shiya and Ama after school! But my handphone ran out of battery and was dying, together with the fact that there's always no reception in certain parts of the school, so I couldn't contact them. After school, Mel and I went to Lot 1 and I thought Shiya and Ama were already that. Then I realised that I should use her phone with my SIM card so I called them we were at the rooftop garden and it turned out that they were still in school waiting for me! Hahaha. So I bought tickets first and Mel waited with me for them to come. Yay thanks Melly!

Shiya, Ama and I went into the cinema just in time, when some commercial just ended and the movie was about to start. The movie wasn't really scary, except that there were sudden images which are made to pop out and surprise you. But those images weren't scary and were actually kind of funny! So I wasn't really spooked even though it was the first day of the seventh month, as it was more of a stupid comedy. It wasn't really worth watching either.

21/8/09: Justin, Xueying and Elena came over to play Wii! When they left for drama, I went for CIP. Happened to meet Shun Yu at the CCK MRT platform and we went to photocopy worksheets at Buona Vista exchange. Yay, it's like much cheaper than photocopying at Lot 1!

25/8/09: The new chinese teacher showed us some touching videos which made us cry!

Stayed back to discuss a little bit about PW before going to Westmall to meet Michelle. Xueying, Justin and Daniel came long too. Haha. We ate dinner and hung out at Lot 1 till 7pm plus.

26/8/09: It was Debby's birthday! I had to get a box to put the bikini in so I went to IMM with Yingwei and Lynn! We went to Daiso to buy stuff and got fascinated with random objects there. Haha. Later in the evening, Michelle and I wanted to surprise Debby so after her CCA, Michelle and I met outside Debby's condo. We gave the security guards the wrong unit number and we also ended up going to the wrong block! Hahaha it was so funny. We were like exploring her condo or something.

And we had to wait outside for people to walk in or out of the block in order to follow them through the gates and get inside. Hahah. Oh, but we found the correct block and looked at the footwear to confirm it! I was asking Michelle if Debby was home in the first place but Michelle didn't want to spoil the surprise so we didn't ask Debby! And in the end Debby really wasn't at home so we passed the present to her mother. But it's okay because her mother was really nice and at least now we will remember where she stays.

28/8/09: Had GP consultation with Ms Chua, like finally. Mel, Lynn and I will be doing this together on a weekly basis, I guess. We accompanied Lynn down to the concourse after that to have her photo taken and superimposed onto the class photos. Yay, hopefully it doesn't look weird but that doesn't matter because at least she'll be in the picture! Went for CIP tuition after that which was more tiring than usual because I was the only one there (the rest had choir).

Time to SLEEP. I'm damn tired and I have to remind myself that there are two essays due on Monday! Can't afford to slack off tomorrow.

I totally want to go to the beach with my PJC friends someday!

Monday, August 17, 2009

What title should be placed here anyway?

I got all kinds of random/ridiculous/sweet/funny answers from the "World Stealing Day" message which I sent to my friends! Got the message from Michelle. Hahaha. The replies totally made my day :D

Last Friday there was CIP as usual and it was fun! Amazingly, I managed to open the door with just one try (I've always been having trouble unlocking the door when I first arrived at the place). Managed to teach with this whiteboard which I could carry around. After the lesson, there's this sense of satisfaction. It's really rewarding.

Yesterday I went to the NUS guild house because my random Aunt had asked my Mum out for lunch. But my cousins didn't come while my sister was busy giving tuition. So it was just my parents and my Aunt and Uncle. It was a bit weird but okay. The food we had at the chinese restaurant was good. (Just that I kept wondering why they didn't refill our cups. I was so thirsty!)

In school today, I finally felt like myself again! I guess I haven't been myself lately. Haha. Didn't really have Monday blues. And I understood econs! Yay. I don't wanna fail anything again. I have a phobia of failing GP and Econs now, though I think I'd probably fail the recent essay tests anyway. But at least I have this fear instead of just not caring.

Speaking of econs, I think Mr. Por is nice and funny (though he misspelt my name the other day, I shall still forgive him). Mr. Ng is funny too. He told us to copy down something while he munched down an apple lattice during history lecture. Haha.

Our chinese teacher has left! That is sad. I'm not used to the new teacher. And I like 林老师! She's really nice and explains things clearly. Oh and just now during PE, our class had a match with 09S27, Mr. Hiap's form class and also the class with combine with for chinese. It's funny that after so long we still don't know their names! And I guess some of us (including myself) feel inferior because their chinese is better than ours.

There's also this stupid belief which I abhor: that people in the science stream are smarter than those in the arts. I say that this is stupid because it is just simply a matter of choice. Ama, Ati and Shiya may say that my combination is crazy (they also asked me how many pens which I have used, which reminds me that I need to buy G2 pilot pen ink refills), but in turn I find that their combination is crazy. Studying pure sciences was already so horrible for me at the 'O' level standard. I would die in a science class.

If a sciency person were to take an arts combination, they would probably flunk. Of course, there are probably some people who'd excel in whichever they choose because they put their mind to it and are really hardworking. But what really matters is still our interests, isn't it? You have to like what you're doing or be a miserable person and do something which seems meaningless or boring to you.

There's some weirdness in class among people. Doesn't seem like it'll clear up but I'm hoping it would.

Oh and here's a random thought. Maybe the word "myselves" should exist in the dictionary because there are many sides to ourselves. And if you were to refer to your inner personality, your public persona and the different ways you act when you're with different people, or the way you used to be in the past as compared to the present; isn't that multiple sides of yourself which you can call "myselves"?

I finally got around to watch "The Green Mile" online. I was so irritated when they only showed us part of the movie during the post-exam activities. I love the movie a lot! It's nice that everything comes full circle. I like stories like that. But it's also kinda sad at certain scenes and it makes me think a lot about death. This is also one of the rare times that I find a movie, which was based on a novel, really good. But it could be because I've not read the book yet.

The other day during the lit symposium, they got this guy who was a student from NTU to speak to us about Pinter's works and postmodernism. And he mentioned questions of identity, questions like why do we exist and stuff. I remember that when I was young, I started asking my mother why I existed but she told me the scientific explanation which wasn't what I was looking for. So I said something like, nooo, I want to know what am I me and not someone else. But she didn't really get it I was like, never mind. But I didn't know that was kind of like postmodernism or something. Is it? I'm not even sure.

Thinking about so many random things at one time gives me a headache. And I don't know why but I guess I get sad easily even when I'm not directly affected by some problem or situation. Just indirectly affected because people tell me their problems which are sad things which make me sad for them and just sad in general. Which is why sometimes I'm sad for no apparent reason or maybe I just stone. But sometimes I stone for no apparent reason as well. There's a difference in stoning, you know. Hahaha.

But I'm feeling more of myself now so I'll try not to stone so much.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I DO NOT HAVE HINI!

Yay I get to miss school again!

Even though NDP celebrations are always boring, I was kinda upset last Friday that I didn't get to go to school. I spent the whole day sleeping and on Saturday I went to see an Ah Beng doctor who took my temperature (39 degrees) and told me to stick out my tongue and say ahhh. Then he gave me an MC for today. Yay!

It sucks to be sick and cough and have people stay away from you thinking that you have H1N1. It also sucks to have a blocked nose and be unable to breathe when you eat. And most importantly, it sucks to be sick during a long weekend when you can't go out and have fun. Oh, and when you are supposed to use the time to study for an upcoming econs test, you end up sleeping because of the drowsy medicine.

Not like I would have studied, but still.

Last Thursday after school, I went back to BBSS with Ama, Ati and Shiya. We met Yunqian, Jingyi and Shuangyu at the back gate and we went in to look at the parade for the opening ceremony. The seven of us had dinner at McDonald's which was surprisingly not awkward but kind of nice.

Oh yeah it was National Day on Sunday, but I didn't feel very patriotic because I was just lying down on the sofa staring at the TV, watching the NDP parade.

After that we got to laugh at the people who sounded terrible at the Singapore Idol auditions.

Oh and I agree with Michelle's post!

It reminded me of someone who asked me whether I regretted the past 3 relationships I had.

Immediately, I gave that person a funny look and said no.
Because why should I?

Initially I did have regrets. But as time passes, I found that there was nothing to regret. I followed my heart and did what I felt like doing. It's better than not giving love a chance at all.

只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得
(锦绣二重唱-我的快乐,命中注定我爱你Soundtrack)

I am no longer upset over that someone anymore as well.
I won't forget, I won't regret. I'll remember and learn. I won't let it happen again.

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
(半情歌-元若蓝,命中注定我爱你Soundtrack)

I am so over that someone.

Oh yeah, I was so happy that 命中注定我爱你 was airing on Channel U until I watched this episode where they dubbed the hokkien parts! With chinese! I mean, come on. Hokkien and chinese sounds so similiar. What's the point. Dubbing it just makes it sound so fake. And it's so obvious that it was added in because the background noise would disappear.

Please don't watch 命中注定我爱你 on Channel U. Just watch it online.

现在我迈开大步走
一直向前走不许再回头
(I'm Ok-元若蓝,命中注定我爱你Soundtrack)

I should move forward and focus on my studies. Hopefully when I get to a uni, I'll be as happy as my sister is. She was so excited to go to school last night.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

RAMBLINGS

3/7/09: Celebrated Elena's birthday! Mel was tipsy and Justin sent her home but the rest of us were stranded so my Dad came to fetch us. Yay, he rocks right. We waited at Starbucks and later my Dad came. He dropped Elena, Miuyen and Hanif off at different places in Bukit Panjang.

7/7/09: 'A' level chinese oral. I WAS THE FIRST AND QUICKEST ONE TO COMPLETE MY ORAL LAH. WTH. 你认为新加坡是个活力的城市吗? NO, 我认为 SINGAPORE IS BORING AND SMALL AND THERE IS NOTHING TO DO HERE.

8/7/09 to 10/7/09: POST EXAM ACTIVITIES SUCK LAH. SERIOUSLY. I MISS BBSS.

11/7/09: Went to the national library with my PW group members to search for a new topic. But whatever, OUR IDEA GOT REJECTED.

14/7/09: It was Lynn's birthday but she wasn't in school!

15/7/09: Class photo taking! I felt so fake when I smiled. I hope I don't look fake.

17/7/09: CIP tuition! Celebrated Lynn's birthday! Took the train to Vivocity and walked around while waiting for the rest (Lynn, Elena, Melanie, Yingwei, Xueying and Justin) as they were watching Harry Potter. Went to some Japanese restaurant to have dinner.

20/7/09: Ate at Jack's Place (LOL), Bukit Pajang Plaza, after school/PE. With Elena, Melanie and Donovan. (I know, I was broke after that)

22/7/09: THE SUCKIEST RACIAL HARMONY DAY CELEBRATION EVER! But it was fun hanging out with the patio with Miuyen saying that PJC = Pathetic Junior College, with Justin pushing the swing and just talking about random things while waiting for my interview with chua (which sucked, by the way)

23/7/09: 'A' level chinese listening comprehension - damn tricky. I was super sleepy during the exam too, but I survived smirking to myself at the back corner of the classroom, suppressing my desire to laugh whenever I saw people jump up at the sounds of music from symphony 92.4. After that, Miuyen and Yingwei slacked with me in the canteen. We were super hyper; I have no idea why, but we just kept crapping and laughing instead of doing homework. Then I met with my PW group and we took a cab down to the Eurasian Community House.

24/7/09: Had CIP tuition as usual (yay, I love the kids!) before rushing over to Vivocity to celebrate Michelle's birthday! My handphone was ran out of battery so I went to meet Jack first, who played his guitar and acted cute while waiting for LY and Bryant to come. Bryant went to escort Michelle over and we surprised her with a chocolate cake and Jack's singing! I passed her Debby's gift and a rose popped out of nowhere! Bought movie tickets with Jack to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince while the rest were supposed to go find a place to eat, but they didn't, I don't know why, and we ended up eating at Carl's Junior. And I don't know what happened but the cake box was thrown away so after a quick meal we left the cake there and dumped the fries into my Carl's Junior box and smuggled drinks and food into the theatre. The cake was wasted and that's so sad! We sat in the front row which is kinda sucky and half way through the movie got boring and Jack was laughing at random scenes even when no one was laughing. Bryant kept thanking me, I have no idea why, and I laughed at the Visa Card advertisement by pointing to the stupid looking guy who was dancing in every part of the world and saying that it was Jack. At midnight I was trapped outside again, so my Dad picked me up at Westmall. I almost panicked when he couldn't find me and my phone died when I was talking to my Dad, but I don't know why I remained calm and ordered a coke from McDonald's. When I came out, his silver van appeared. Yay. My sister says that the van is blue but I say it's silver.

26/7/09: Made a trip down to the Eurasian Community House again for more interviews at their Sunday lunch!

28/7/09: Bryant's birthday! There was this NS talk after school which was so boring. And after that, as the CE/NE rep I had to attend this short lesson by SCDF about fire safety, which was actually boring but the speaker was funny so its okay. It was like the Civil Defence course I went for when I was in SJAB because after the talk they brought as to the parade square to put out a fire.

29/7/09: HAD SERIOUS MOOD SWINGS. I was super stoney and sad and angry and after that I went home to cry but after that I was super happy and I went to have dinner with Jack, Bryant and Michelle, who made me laugh like crazy. Ate at NYDC at Holland Village.

30/7/09: During chinese lesson, 林老师 flared up at us and ignored us for a while. Later, she told us that she's going to leave after teaching the last 课文 and some other teacher was going to take over. Boooooo. We should totally give her a balloon.

31/7/09: Canceled GP consultation with chua since I wasn't ready. Went to photocopy the new chapter on fractions for CIP tuition. I like teaching them because it can be quite fun. And I like being the first one there to meddle with the key and the lock to open the door and switch on the air con.

1/8/09: Meet the parents sesson. Mum meets chua-bitch. Received a day of nagging. Ughhhh.

2/8/09: Went for CIP at the Choa Chu Kang Community Centre as a CE/NE rep. It was some National Day celebration thingy where all the aunties came to get free goodie bags and all the kids came to get free balloons. I spent the entire morning (the event lasted till 12 noon) doing CPR on the manikin at the CPR booth and teaching those aunties and uncles and kids about CPR.