i find my world crashing down on me. everything is just wrong.
during math today miss lim found out. plus she asked when did it start. what the.. beatrice sure helped out a lot by blabbing everything out. at first i didn't think much about it (except that the fact a teacher knows of the relationship) but when walking to the bus stop after school it suddenly dawned on me. oh my gosh. OH. MY. GOSH. my parents are coming to the PTM this friday, the day after tomorrow. they will be seeing my form teacher and english mrs teo, the co-form and science teacher cum discipline mistress ms koe (AHHH), and my math teacher miss lim. because i failed my math. miss lim. and she KNOWS. hello??! connection? miss lim might tell! MIGHT. and if she does i'll be in deep shit. my parents. dad already thinks that going to meet his child's teachers to discuss and have a conversation to care about his child's education is a waste of time. i couldnt agree more. can't they just let me be?
and my sister had me go home early today because she didnt bring her key and wanted to take something from the house. what the hell. why cant she bring her key? its just a stupid piece of metal that is designed to fit the lock on the gate. it wont kill you to bring it.
just now i was called up for public duty. duty for the 20th anniversary. i would be sitting there bored to death on duty watching people enjoying themselves probably in my st john tee or some uniform.
a much different vision of what i saw last month.
he is not even going to be there. he's gonna attend another dinner. i think ive watched cinderella one time too many. ive also been looking forward to dress up.
everything is against me. just not going the way i wished for it to be.
im not going to let all these bring me down. i will still bring the digital camera as i intended, be optimistic and make this best out of everything. and hope for the best. (:
